30 Things: Day 2

So, already I have missed a day on my 30 day challenge.  Fortunately, it was only one day instead of 5 months between posts this time.  :)  So, time for day 2!

Day 2: Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

 

1) Going head first into the water: I have a fear of going head first into water.  I can swim just fine, I don't mind deep water, but something about having my head lower than my feet makes me panic.  I honestly don't know when this started or how it came about.  I took swimming lessons when I was young and when I got to the level where I had to dive, I couldn't do it.  I failed that level.  Maybe it's because my body knows that I could drown and that my head is facing the opposite way than where air is.  Either way, I HATE IT!

2) Disappointing people: I have a terrible fear of disappointing people.  It's not really a fear of failing, but more of disappointing people, especially those that I love. Even from my earliest youth, I hated the look that people would give me if they were disappointed in me.  I was especially aware of my parents.  I knew the exact look they would give when I did something wrong.  My mom had a sigh that she would use and it still fills me with guilt if I hear it.  I love people so much that it legitimately scares me to think of disappointing them.

3) Being a parent: I have a fear of being a mother.  Don't get me wrong, I am really looking forward to it and I want children.  However, I feel so completely unprepared.  I am scared that I will be a horrible mother.  Being a parent is a lot of work and I am terrified of messing my children up.  Hopefully that won't be the case, but it doesn't stop me from being scared of it.